Now that I have this sleep apnia mechine I am finding myself needing less sleep. So there I am laying in bed wide awake at 4:00 am. As I'm laying there pondering my new sober life, I for some reason get the idea that mabye I should go to church.
Spiritualty is a important part of AA and healthy recovery. AA's 2nd step reads "Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity." Being that I don't have much religion I have strugled with this a bit. I have being searching for my "Higher Power". I have been trying my best to stay open to anything that catches my eye and sticks. So I'm laying there thinking that maybe I should go to church this Sunday (not a bad place to look for a higher power, um duh).
So I get out of bed and hop out of bed and jump on the internet to see about the local services. Well low and behold the baptist church in Ogema has a Christmas service this morning at 6:00am. So I put on my button up shirt and head to church.
I'm sitting there in the pew slightly uncofortable because everyone knows that I'm the guy with the word "assjack" on the back window of his Ford. The preacher is preaching and I'm doing my best to try and follow along and I hear something that really caught my ear.
Corinthans 1-6 Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor men who have sex with men nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. And that is what some of you were. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.
So how strange is it that 1. I wake up at 4am, 2. I deceded to go church for the first time since I got married, 3. The preacher man says something about a drunkard being forgiven. I'm not saying that I'm going to become a decan in the church, but I do think that I may explore this God and church thing a little further.
Tom I am so proud of you. from what I can tell from here you have come so far. Don't worry about understanding or being able to follow everything the pastor says as you have witnessed God will open your ears to what you need to hear if you open your heart to him. Look in the lobby of the church near the doors to the sanctuary there are small books called Daily Bread they are sometimes easier to understand then the sermons (adlest they were when the old pastor was there). Stay strong. Actually I can't wait to come home and check out the new pastor.
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