pms

     21 days sober.  Now that the cloud of alchol is lifting my emotions are slowly waking up.  I never realized how much i have not been feeling while i was drunk for all these years.  Feeling seems so new to me and the truth is im kinda freakin out.  I have not had to make decision or choices based on how i feel for so long.
     I feel like a women with PMS.  I am an emotional bitch right now.  I feel like Im on a rollercoaster, one minute i will be supper happy and the next i will want to cry like a baby and i dont know why.  I can hate someone one minute and love them the next (sorrry barbie).  I am having a hell of a time controling the way i feel and think.  But you know what as hard as it may be to going through this i am so thankfull.  I am fucking feeling.  I thought that i would never be happy again and i am starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel.  I want to cuddle with my wife becuse it makes me feel good.  the numbness is leaving my heart and i have insperation again.